NDE - Lesson One: Your Own Life Is Not In Your Control!
Updated: Dec 22, 2020
As I was lying on the scanner, the doctor came up to me to announce that they had detected an issue that required immediate transfer to a university hospital for an emergency surgery '... this is a very serious situation. It is going to be a long operation (around 8 hours), but you will be in the best hands'.
From then on, I was forbidden to make any effort. I had to let myself be carried to the ambulance. After a ride with all sirens wailing, I found myself in the operating room. Time had stopped. I woke up 12 hours later in an ICU.
When I heard the doctor's verdict, I remember that I was very calm. I thought to myself: 'well, this is a moment where I have zero control on my life. I can only trust others and destiny'. And I closed my eyes.
It's a powerful lesson that I'll remember for the rest of my life: you are in charge of your own choices, your own decisions, your own life, yet you are part of a whole. Your autonomy and control are illusory. Every action you take has a butterfly effect, so your personal responsibility is important, but alone, you are worth nothing. Whatever the context (private, professional, societal), you only exist in relation to others. You need to think of the whole first.